Dreams come true...

I wake up in the morning and feel my life is too good to be true. I had an audition the other day and I have never wanted a gig so bad. I can't post it online until it's over due to confidentiality rules but let's just say it is the ultimate gig for me and I am so happy. It had then opened doors to a handful more gigs that I'm so excited to do. I look back to how I was feeling a month ago and I had decided I hated dancing but it's not true. Just certain gigs and situations. But now, I have never been happier and its because I'm doing a dancing gig. I've realized that every situation, audition, gig is different and that I just need to work out which ones make me happy and which ones don't. This will be a short entry but I'm going to finish off by saying that I truly believe if you want something bad enough, you will attract am opportunity, then it's up to you to work as hard as you can to make that opportunity yours...to make your dream a reality. I'll post a photo of what I looked like at the audition which might give you a bit of a clue of the gig I'll be doing next Wednesday : ) love Han xx

It's been a while...

It's been a while but heres another update. I've been a bit bad on my diet and I only have a week to go. I'm back on it but sugar is my weakness coz I made the decision to eat some one night (movie night, malteasers and popcorn) and since then it's been hard to go as hardcore as I was. I have some good days and some bad days. I really want to get back on it and look fabulous for the hunter valley weekend. I'm also super super excited about the great gatsby premiere in Bowral. They are having a night and it's dress up so I have made a costume which I will upload. I'm very proud of myself. I love it. I also have a wishlist; Calvin Klein underwear. It's beautiful. I really want to wear it at the end of the challenge in hunter valley but I just can't get over how disappointed I am in myself that I haven't stuck to it. I look good but it's not enough. Lately I have been thinking slot about doing things I intend to do and finishing them. I think I am going to stick to this, in fact I know I will and I should just accept that I haven't been perfect but that doesn't matter. I've had some lovely meals and I shouldn't regret that. Ahhh I'm going to be honest. I really have an issue with my body image. I feel fine sometimes and other times I look at myself and think "too short, too fat" and I really have to stop that coz I have a great body that serves me well and I need to love it and appreciate it. I think i'm just having a slightly down day today in general but I'm going to finish with a few affirmations.
Appreciate your body. It was made uniquely for you and it's beautiful and does amazing things.
Keep going with your dreams. There are doers in this world and dreamers in this world. Be both and you will create beautiful things the world will enjoy.
Do something creative everyday
Stars can't shine without darkness xx

Winter wishlist

Here are some inspirations for my winter wardrobe. Some could cross over into my summer wardrobe of which I can take to Italy : ) compliments Saint Laurent Paris and Lover the label xx

Healthy recipes

Tonight I went into a cooking frenzy. Lately my mind has been going crazy with combinations, mostly for food and clothes but it's great because I feel I am really exercising the creative part of my brain. Tonight I made 3 easy, cheap and healthy, carb-less and sugar-less recipes. Here they are and I hope you enjoy them, I certainly did : )

Tuna salad
(So easy it's not even funny)

1 whole continental cucumber chopped
1 punnet of cherry tomatoes chopped in half
2 medium cans of drained tuna in brine
Drizzle of olive oil
Drizzle of balsamic

Mix it all together and done...lunch tomorrow


Cauliflower soup

1 brown onion chopped
1 bunch of cauliflower broken up into little sections (cut the stem off and throw away)
Salt reduced chicken stock
Drizzle of Olive oil

Put onions and drizzle olive oil into large pot and cook until onions are soft. Add cauliflower into pot. Pour stock in so it is in line with the top of the cauliflower. Stir and cover with lid to simmer. After about 20 mins, the cauliflower should be soft. Turn of stove and get an electric mixer and mix until soup texture. Perfect healthy winter warmer and you can basically use any vegetable.


Cocoa balls

1 pack of Slivered almonds
1 jar of almond and chia spread
Shredded coconut
A tablespoon of coconut oil
Handful of pitted dates
Cocoa powder

Empty almonds, jar of spread, coconut oil and broken up dates into a mixing bowl. With electric mixer, mix until texture is consistent. Add cocoa and kneed until texture is firm enough to roll into balls. Put shredded coconut into a separate bowl. Grab a teaspoon of cocoa mix and roll it into a ball, cover in shredded coconut and viola...cocoa ball. Repeat until all the mixture is gone : ). This recipe has inspired me for a healthy take on Australia's famous Anzac cookies that I will make for upcoming Anzac day on Thursday. I will make the cookies with live and in honour of the wonderful Anzacs. Until then...Bon appetite : )

A change is coming

So winters icy bite has began and among other things, a feeling of change is in the air. I feel like I am just working hard for something so worth while that is approaching whether it be working towards Italy, my adventure next year and new Mac book pro, or even my 6 week challenge (which I've decided to step up) to look and feel fabulous in my beautiful European inspired wardrobe I am accumulating. I am also incredibly excited about my writing at the moment, my plans for my ultimate murder mystery 25th birthday and more recently, the Hunter Valley get away Nick and I are going on.
Right, first things first; 6 week challenge. I've decided I'm going to stay on it till nick and I go away to the Hunter so I can indulge and feel I deserve it, therefore my 6 week challenge will end up being more a 10 week challenge. Although I have not eaten any carbs or sugar, I've been eating a lot of dairy and as of today, I'm going to cut right back on that as well as control my portion size a bit more.
My writing is going well and I am beginning to make a habit of writing when I can; on my lunchbreaks, at home and even sometimes during work which is a bit naughty but it helps the day go faster. My problem is I have a handful of ideas and I don't stick to one at a time but a goal I am setting is to try and finish the projects I have now before I start another one. These projects are; screenplay about Charlie Chaplin, the adventures of Patrick the penny, my traveling show idea-worlds best advice, character profiles for my party and the short films for the thspa concert. Before I take on any more, I must finish all these. It's good having a few projects because depending on the mood I am in, I can focus on different ones. When I am in an adventure mood I concentrate on patrick the penny or the worlds best advice. I love writing and being creative so much. It is absolutely who I am and makes me feel so powerful and happy and proud of myself and my individuality. It would be my dream to somehow make it a career.
Finally Nick and I are going to the Hunter Valley for a weekend on the 31st of May staying in 5 star accommodation with a fire and breakfast and canapés and wine tours. Ahhh I am so excited. I am beginning to plan my cosy, relaxed yet very smart and stylish wardrobe for the weekend. I want to get a big taupe woolen jumper to wear over my white sheer blouse with the collar sticking out the top. There are also cheese and chocolate local factories. It's going to be a well deserved, indulgent but most of all beautifully romantic weekend.
I am so lucky. I truly believe we create our own realities and write the script of our lives. I also believe that goals and things to look forward to are so important because life isn't always exciting especially when you're working 30 days straight but it can be if you have something to look forward to. But saying that, I try not to live in the future because if I am constantly living in the future, I'll miss out on the present and life will go too quick. The present is called the present because that's what it is...a gift. I will always try to enjoy the gift of living in the moment even the good and bad times. The fact I am alive and can experience everything that is involved with life is so exciting. Until next time. Han xx

Day 11 of 6 weeks challenge

Since my last entry I have successfully stuck to my healthy eating and exercise. I haven't had any artificial sugar and basically the only carbs I eat is a bit if black rice in the sushi, but I've just been eating a lot. I feel healthy but I definitely don't feel I'm losing weight. I guess thats not important really. Feeling healthy is the main thing. I'd kill for some chocolate and popcorn and a glass of wine and bread haha. In other news I am travel mad. I can't get away sooner. 111 days till we go to Italy. Nick and I have decided after our 6 week challenge has finished, we might take a weekend away to the hunter valley and go on a wine tour. In terms of my career, nothing is certain and it frustrates me. I have all these ideas like screenplays and novels and I begin to write them but it's hard to stick to them because what do I do with them? Who will read them? I'm not doing them for any reason but for myself, which is great but it's not incredibly motivating. I know I have to start somewhere but it frustrates at times. Even this blog. No one reads it except my boyfriend Nick. But hey, at least I'm still doing it. Anyway until next time : ) xx

Day 8 of 6 week challenge

So I'm feeling guilty after a night of binge eating on Saturday. I had eaten well all weekend and all day Saturday but pretty much Saturday night it went down the drain for a few hours, and what a great couple of hours that was. Nick and I went to Good God for our friend Lucys birthday and it was basically a banquet of the best Mexican food ever that just kept coming, culminating with peanut icecream and strawberry jam for dessert. After a glass of red wine I had decided my 6 week challenge was on hold for the night and continued to get a San Churros dark hot chocolate on the way home. I slept well that night but woke up still full from the night before. Pretty much besides that I've been back on track with food and am going to go to Agoga this morning. I have been working so much which is draining but exciting knowing that I'll be able to use that money to explore amazingness all over the world. I had an idea last night about asking people we meet along the way a few questions like what makes them happy and what is the best advice you've received but I still need to think about it more. I then want to document it all and compile it into a documentary style feature. Finally I just want to say how much I appreciate my beautiful boyfriend and partner in crime Nick Caltabiano for his endless patience, support and love with me and his wonderful free spirited, life loving soul. I am so lucky to have him in my life and I love him beyond words. Can't wait to continue this adventure together. Love Han xx

Day 4 of 6 week challenge

Morning everyone. So I'm really inspired about doing this six week challenge. I went for a run last night and have been eating so good. I basically have a 3 out of 4 of either a black rice tuna and avocado sushi roll, rocket and Parmesan with lemon juice and olive oil salad, a tomato, rocket, Parmesan 2 egg omlette or natural Greek yoghurt with slivered almonds and honey. I might also have a salmon steak if I can. On another note I am beyond excited about travelling in August and moving to europe next year : ) It's all I think about. I also am writing a screenplay which is a great creative outlet so all in all, I'm really happy at the moment. I can't wait to start documenting my travels but until then, it's work work work for me : ) Love Han xx

6 week challenge

Nick and I have decided, after the indulgent easter weekend, that we are going on a 6 week get into shape challenge. Last night we took the "before" shot. Now 6 weeks of hardcore sugar and carb control and working out. I love going to Agoga gym in Bondi. Day 1 has been successful so far. Having online now makes it all that more official and hopefully easier to stick to. I'll keep you posted xx

Welcome

So this blog is not specifically for anyone but myself. Its kind of an online journal of my travels, inspiration, thoughts and dreams xx